Running Scared

This post is sponsored by Vocalpoint and Dick’s Sporting Goods. All opinions are my own.

Guys, I’ve got a not-so-secret secret: I’m slightly terrified of running the R2R2R. There. I said it. It’s out there.

The truth shall set you free!

In all seriousness, I knew I wanted to attempt something big in 2016. Some people call them resolutions, others call them goals. I don’t really know where the R2R2R falls but it’s definitely on my really-want-to-accomplish list for this year. And quite honestly, it’s been awhile since I’ve been so nervous about a goal! Last year’s Antelope Canyon was different. Yes, I was nervous but as training commenced, I wasn’t worried. I knew I would finish; it was merely a question of how painful those 34 miles would be.

But this? It’s entirely different.


Photos By Will Rochfort

These thoughts were running through my head as I drove to DICK’s Sporting Goods ® the other day. You see, they sponsored this post {Yes, they paid me to write about my R2R2R ramblings!} As I walked around their fitness section, eyeballing clothing to wear during my winter training runs, I found myself looking at each item with renewed interest.

Would this be worn in the Grand Canyon?

Would those tights survive if I eat it running down the North Rim?

Would I survive?!



If this looks really awkward, it’s because it was! My hamstrings were SO SORE from squats at CrossFit the day prior!

In the end, I picked an outfit that I liked solely for its color combination and its ability to keep me warm this winter. While the new outfit may not make the trek to the Grand Canyon, it sure did a great job of holding my mental game hostage for the rest of the day! {Thanks Dick’s!}

So why is the R2R2R so intimidating for me? One single reason:

There is no bailout.


In any sanctioned ultra, there are aid stations and volunteers and various medical support teams to assist you should anything go wrong. In the Grand Canyon? You’ve got nothing. Well, nothing other than my three friends and Will wandering around the South Rim somewhere. But there is no medical support; there is no car to pick me up should I decide I don’t feel like running anymore. Once we make that initial descent from the South Rim, we’re all in. And that’s an imposing sensation. Hell, I’m not even sure which water pumps will be turned on at that point!


And then there is the elevation gain. Y’all, 11k in gain AND loss is a ton of work. I’ve done it before and I remember being really, really tired afterwards. Sadly, that was also ten years ago so I’m a bit older and wiser  now….which means it will likely hurt ten-years-worth more!

As I sit here and type, I’ve arrived at the conclusion: the R2R2R is scary because I can’t phone it in. I can’t semi-train and suffer through a run of this distance and caliber. Not only is that stupid, but it’s downright dangerous. It’s been awhile since a fitness goal is truly, truly daunting for me. Guess 2016 is the year to go big!



When was the last time you did something that scared you? What was it?


  • Reply Mihael at

    Wishing you all the best going. Have fun with it and enjoy the great clothes. Trust your practice program and just be great.


  • Reply Heidi @BananaBuzzbomb at

    Scared shitless…but we’ve got this…right??

  • Reply Logan at

    We got this!!! We’ve still got three full months to train!!

  • Reply Alyssa Pelletier at

    You are going to crush this! I got this great print ( ) for Christmas. I love looking at it and remembering that life gets better when you push yourself!

  • Reply Natalie @ Free Range Human at

    All I can say is kudos to you on attempting something of this magnitude! Also, I have to commend you on having the good sense to be afraid. At least you understand the dangers and the need to be fully prepared to do this. So many people jump into things that are far passed their abilities which leads to a bad situation all the way around. Glad you’re ready to put in the work so you come out of it with a great experience and a great story!

  • Reply Christy at

    I think if you aren’t scared of doing something ballsy like that then you aren’t really human. 🙂 I can’t wait to read all about your adventure though!

  • Reply Kayla at

    You’ll do great, like always. Just stay on top of your training this time (ya right)!!!

  • Reply Amiee at

    I just signed up for my first hundred miler and I am already losing sleep over it and it isn’t until September. I’ve never really attempted something I didn’t actually think I could do until now and that is soooooo scary even though I will be able to bail at anytime 🙂

  • Reply Lynn at

    Every time I climb a mountain it scares me. But I do it anyway because it’s scarier not to do those things. I’m also a firefighter so I get scared of my life on a regular basis!

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